Hi Mum.. Well it has been nearly a year since you left all your pain behind. I know that you are in a pain free place now.. and that you are watching over us as you always have done. Things here haven't changed to much Mum except for one thing we are all missing you so much. 
Lorraine is still our tower of strength mum I don't know how she does it .. with all that she has to cope with she is still there for me ..I talk to Rhianna on icq she is a right lady now mum oh so grown up. Bianca i hear is doing well  and Tricia Anne Anne is ok too. Pelam well he is just Pel.. flowing along with the flow as he always has done .. Love them all. Dad .. well he is another story Mum .. i talk with him on the phone .. he misses u like crazy ..he doesn't cope too well with not having you tell him what to do..I remember some of the conovs we had about you telling Dad to do something and he pretending to take no notice .. but he always did it in the end. I don't hear about Catherine or Nathan .. and that is sad. I assume they are well mum  with you looking out for them.. as you do for all of us and your grandchildren. Annette well as you know her and i are still not talking .. sounds strange Mum but i do miss her  and one day soon i promise i shall call her. Dj wow how i do miss him  I know he is doing ok    ..
Raymond I haven't seen in awhile but Tim sees him and says he is ok..  Now time for me to tell you about my family .. Where do i begin Mum.. this has without been one of the hardest years of my life without you here...I miss you so much as we all do .. each and every day i think of you .. and the other day i was having a bad day and i mean bad .. I yelled at your photograph .. asking why you had to go from us i needed you so bad.. and then i remembered some advice you gave me once .. don't let it get you down Lizzy every dog has their day .. remember that mum ? Well it helped .. and i am still waiting for that day to come to that dog. Now down to my kids ... Sharntay is going along nicely ...she is working at Spotlight and is so full of life it is great to see Mum I don't know what I would do without her sometimes..  Tim wow .. well as you would know now he is a father .. he has a beautiful granddaughter Teneisha Elizabeth (after you me Tricia Anne) He is settling in nicely working 6 days a week.. has his learners .. and will soon have his P Plates.  Nicolas .. wow has he had a year .. as you know he was diagnosed with type one diabetes in March 2001. Well he has had a big year .. all of us settling into the routine .. he is a real trooper mum .. he hardly ever complains .. and it is hard for him .. Hey he has grown and put on weight and no more dark circles under his eyes mum .. tho i am sure you can see his progress. He is in grade 2 now and doing well... tho i have to tell you Mum the  mood swings of his get to me ..I reckon they are worse than a teens. But we cope each day.. tho lonelier without you.. . It is all like a bad dream Mum.. and I think it is because I didn't get to  say see you  .. and it is only seeya .. because I know we will meet again one day .. I will be the one rearranging all the furniture up there ..... Ahh I know that you are laughing Mum .. that was always a joke between you and I .. my need to rearrange the furniture. Nicolas said to me the other day Mum.. when we win lotto .. i want to give some money to Cancer people for their research to stop Cancer.. I said hey great idea son .. but why cancer and not diabetes .. he said well maybe  they can save someone else's Nanna .. and then they will be happy. He is such a great kid .. he misses you Mum.. As all my kids do .. You are one special lady in their lives .. and always will be .. 
Mum if I can be a quarter of the mother you were to me and my siblings ...I will be a happy lady.. You are my Mother my best friend... I lost a lot the day you left this Earth for a pain free place. I reckon that you and Nanna are having the run of the place up there .. say hi to her  for me .. I must go now Mum.... I am sure that you will be keeping an eye out for me and the kids.. as you will all of the family. I love you Mum..now and always.... Miss you more than anyone will ever know. Take care my angel on my shoulder.